Get a glimpse of my journal reflections of past year and my loving commitments for the new year. An annual ritual that resets and restores my life, my body and my spirit as I welcome in 2024.

So this is more of a thanksgiving love note ……

It’s World Kindness Day on Nov 13th! Time for us to look inwards. When we look inwards, we are nourishing our hearts and minds, and that will spark the essence of kindness and self-compassion that is imnate within each one of us. We just need a little reminder.

Not a yoga tutorial for sleep nor fertility-related, but it's my personal share about how yoga transformed my life, or SLEEP in this instance, which is the original mission of my blog. 

Learnt about an inquiry technique for anxiety, my 2 AHA moments and if you read the end, there's a list of personal mantras that has helped me get out my head, and into lala land.

I never thought that I would need to strengthen my “inner peace” muscle, while navigating the IVF journey! I think I take it for granted, but there is so many noise in your head, creating a permanent space for peace and quiet in my inner world is very much needed.

This blog post is about why it's important to cultivate inner peace, why it became something that I yearn for throughout my IVF journey. If you read till the end, I'll share a mantra that has been helpful towards getting me closer to peacefulness in my heart.

Being gentle was an important lesson I learnt during my IVF journey, which is so needed in all aspects of my life. When I added "gentleness" into my way of being, it becomes easier to forgive myself, to accept things and to surrender things I can't control, feelings and thoughts that I don't need - to give it up to the universe, so I can get to trust myself more and a create a life of joy, love and abundance. 

My latest blog post has more questions then there are answers. It's one of those days, where a thought stumped me - and in this case it's the word "comfort."

I wondered if in my own way, if I had comforted myself?

So in this post, I explore the idea of Comfort and the need to comfort ourselves.

So if you wish to be in inquiry and if you resonate with this definition of Inquiry offered by my yoga teacher, Baron Baptiste -” Inquiry gives access to discovery and new possibilities”, read on!

So you heard that Yoga is a kind of exercise that can help in improving fertility.

And you read about it.

But you never took action or you just tried one class or you’re just too busy.

Does that sound familiar?

In this post, I share 7 Mindset Shifts that was a game changer to the way I practice my yoga today, and how I managed to include it as part of my self-care when I was on IVF journey, with the little time that I have! I also have a actionable tip on how you can start yoga NOW.

Manifestations? Yay or Nay? My Thoughts.

It’s the time of year to create my 2023 Year of Possibilities. Read on for -

• a beautiful journal prompt to replace your usual New Year resolutions

• A snapshot of what has been in my life in 2022

• my loving commitments in 2023

• A link on how you can create your own New Year of Possibilities

One important thing I learnt last year is that having gratitude for what I have in my life - allowed me to let go of negative thoughts so I can create space for new thoughts that will serve me better.

Here are my 2021 lists that I’m ready to leave behind so I can embrace the possibilities and abundance of 2022.

Be extra loving because you can — don't let your stories dim your beautiful light. Now’s the time to let go of your stories so you can create space for new possibilities.

Mmm… so I wrote this back in Sept 2020, and I was inspired by a sutra study session about Isvara Pranidhana, which is said to be a practice of Surrender. Grateful to Paige Elenson for leading that dharma talk then and to Seth Barron for revisiting it this year. Otherwise this poem would not have seen the light of day. I read it in class this week for the first time, and well, I felt something. It pushed to make the higher call, to share this with you.

The one word that could give you access to peace and being grounded. It’s Okay if you’re not religious, neither am I - so I invite you to read this with an open mind and heart.

A gentle love note to yourself when you are feeling overwhelmed with the todos, the whatnots, the shoildhaves and the oughttos… say it out loud, write out in your journal - or simply just repeat to yourself, in your heart;

I can be gentle with myself

I can be gentle with myself

I can be gentle with myself

I love sharing things that touches me in some way and this is no exception. 

If you are going through something or have gone through something in your life; be it infertility, cancer, death of someone - her story, this song is for you.

Morgan Harper Nichols has to be one of my favourite current writers/poet/inspiration. Her words touches my heart, deeply, and this came up right when I needed it most.

I need to share this here, in case you and I forget that we are human and we are alive, together taking exhale together.

Reminder to self that I have the courage to surrender, and accept that things will never change, But I can change. I can choose to find joy every morning when I wake up. I have the choice.

What is the hardest thing you did today ?

For some, waking up is hard. Going to work is hard. Not meeting loved ones is hard especially if you don't live in the same country. Not having someone to love is hard.

And let me tell you for me, the hardest thing to do is to begin again, every morning, every day after a setback or bad news, especially during this COVID times.

So I thought it's apt to start the 2nd month of 2021 with a reminder to begin again.

It's okay to feel whatever you feel - resentment, feel like a failure, useless, overwhelmed and...... truth is you are human, a human with a capacity to feel and heal. 

The hardest and the bravest you can do is to begin again.

Do that. Be Brave.

A Poem

For the days when you feel like things are out of control,

The future is uncertain or dreary,

For when you feel tired from all the doings and the tryings

When you need to feel like you are in control

And you want to be connected,

Not distracted,

Come to the mat

My Invitation to you to Surrender, Soften and Slow Down …

A beautiful poem by Oriah Mountain Dreamer from the book “the invitation”

This was a random post inspired by a halo spotted over the Singapore skies. A shorter post is on my instagram so check it out here, and please follow me if you like.

The Anyway Poem

Steadiness - putting in effort without strain. In Yoga, it's balanced action or Sukha Stira. In a way to me, it's a kinder version of discipline, where we can create our own space to forgive and get messy and forgive again.

In my meditation practice a few evenings ago, my teacher Baron Baptiste asked us to set a mantra to anchor our attention on.

What came up for me wasn't sexy nor aww inspiring - it was STEADINESS, which was new to me. I wasn't sure of it initially but it was the first thing that popped into my head. And I kept repeating it in my head, and it got stuck.

We all have our things to do daily so that we don’t go insane, things that we don’t want to do but we need to do, right?I've been struggling with doing too much things, because I was afraid of feeling overwhelmed. Because when I feel overwhelmed, I do nada. Zilch!! Unproductive.

That day I gave myself permission to skip my pills, the herbs, my to-dos and the what-nots - and gave myself a break , to restore myself back to love.

I meditated and I journaled and what came up was a long of poem of sorts.. It is what it is, the chatters of my monkey mind. 

I wrote and rewrote this post so many times (which is why I missed sending my newsletter out last week)

When I first wrote it, I was feeling nice and fuzzy, and then boom, time of the month happened. I was feeling frustrated, angry and sad, tired all within a day, which lasted a good 5 days. 

The title of the blog was originally Love Every Bits of You, and it’s during that angsty period that I "cleverly" changed it to “Love Every B**** of you”. Well, at least I thought it was clever.... but then I wasn't not even sure I can write it out loud... it is a bad word, no? Anyways... I ended up with B*****, but you get what i mean... 

I'm so frustrated at my Bits sometimes, and I know I can't change it... and having to practice Equanimity last week for the 40 days got me present to another experience of being calm which is be in acceptance and surrendering and going with the flow. I'm angry. I complain and I still love every bits of me.

It's like… don't you have complaints about your other half or about your mum or your boss, that you wish you could change, but having done the work, you know you can't? You have to accept them the way they are.

It's like that here, with your bits.

We can't change our "bits" either, but we can change how you respond to them. And change happens moment to moment. You notice your b***** hollering at ya, you holla back (be friendly), you accept them, you love them and you forgive them if you don't feel like it.

“I heard that we are in the same boat. But it's not like that. We are in the same storm, but not in the same boat.”

That is a cold hard truth. We all have own stories and struggles and in this difficult time, it’s important that we find it in our hearts to be kinder and compassionate towards to one another.

If you’re feeling sorry for yourself, saying “it’s hopeless”, “it’s too late”, “i’m not good enough” - do this one thing ! JUST SHOW UP!

Found another gem to add my list of love letters to myself. It’s more like reminder, a reality check in, because it made me aware that what I’m doing now is important. And it speaks to m heart and make it easier for me to do the “hard” stuff and things “I don't feel like doing.”

A beautiful little fable about letting go of judgement, fears and the “not good enoughs”