I am my worst enemy. The things I say to myself, oh my god - I would never say to the face of other people even the people I don’t like .
Like when I look at myself in the mirror, I catch myself saying “why is my face so big and ugly?” or “Why is my butt so big” . If no one turns up for class, I’ll say to myself “I’m a horrible teacher!” or I feel like I did something wrong. Etc. Etc. Etc.
The worst thing is that I don’t do anything about those voices, because they have become the norm. #truthbomb
How can I be kind to others if I am unkind to myself? How can I inspire others when I cannot inspire myself?
I am sure my friends when they read this, they will pooh pooh me. Right now, I don't need you to make me feel better. I just want you allow me to wallow in my own ocean of sad MUFFIN TOPS! Allow me to FEEL!!!
So let me FEEL.
Let me feel desperate! Let me feel sad. Let me feel bad. Let me feel fat!
Because I am going to do something about it.
I have started waking early to work out and I've blocked out non-negotiable yoga dates. Changing my hair colour and making effort to put on a little blusher and lip gloss in the morning, does wonders for the confidence. And I’m going to focused on my goals, be strong on the WHYs and say no to things that does not align with my goals.
However I had to admit that these are not enough! These are doable and super important to my sanity and my well-being but they are just physical actions, which means absolutely nothing if I don’t value myself enough. The voices in my head won’t stop chattering unless I work on changing my mindset.
THE WORK IS ON THE INSIDE ! #truthbomb #sophiecanquote
So this is what I have been doing (trying to) every single morning since the beginning of April.
I stare at myself in the mirror and say:
Sophie, you are beautiful and sexy!
Sophie, you have a kind heart!
Sophie, you are an amazing teacher!
Sophie, you are funny! Sophie, you will survive!
Sophie, you have abundance!
Sophie, you are inspiring!
YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK.
And whenever I catch myself saying bad things again, I am going to squelch those awful thoughts and I’ll remind myself to be grateful for what I have because truthful right now, I have enough.
What's your mantra? What gets you through the day? Write in the comments below!