I Want To Hate Chrissy Teigen -But I Can’t
Dealing with pregnancy announcements is hard especially if you are struggling with infertility.
Like most IVF warriors, in the beginning of my IVF journey, I got triggered by pregnant women in my condo, hearing pregnancy news, and seeing babies in the prams in the park. That was like 5 years ago. And I found my own way to successfully deal with them.
And so it was surprising when I got triggered by Chrissy Teigen’s 4th baby news. I’m deeply in inquiry because I've not been triggered in a while, not even when an IVF sister had her 3rd child recently through IVF, nor when my sister had my beautiful niece, or when I arrived at my sister's house for my nephew's birthday, and found the house overrun by horde of small kids.
In today’s post, I’ll share a prayer that was helpful in dealing with Chrissy’s baby news. And why forgiveness is the key to releasing judgement and living a peaceful and kinder life.
Mother's Day Is Hard, but You’ve already done The Hard Stuff
If you are struggling this Mother’s Day, I want to tell you that you are not alone and that you can do TODAY! This is a list of the many difficult, amazing , wonderfully brave things we have done on our fertility journey. We did all that. We did all the hard stuff. Mother's Day - pfft! We got this!!
A Love Letter to Myself Before Infertility
Bismillah
It's Okay by Nightbirde
Begin Again
What is the hardest thing you did today ?
For some, waking up is hard. Going to work is hard. Not meeting loved ones is hard especially if you don't live in the same country. Not having someone to love is hard.
And let me tell you for me, the hardest thing to do is to begin again, every morning, every day after a setback or bad news, especially during this COVID times.
So I thought it's apt to start the 2nd month of 2021 with a reminder to begin again.
It's okay to feel whatever you feel - resentment, feel like a failure, useless, overwhelmed and...... truth is you are human, a human with a capacity to feel and heal.
The hardest and the bravest you can do is to begin again.
Do that. Be Brave.
Cultivate Your Superpower of Consistency
A Love Letter to Myself - to stay the course, remain consistent to what I want to make happen.
Because if I'm 100% committed to what I want to make happen, the next step is to be consistent. Consistency is really tapas in action; staying in the fire. Over time, it will give us access to breaking out of default patterns and our negative thoughts. And on the way, create a kinder and healthier seed in our mind. While it is not easy, I know I can find ease in the effort. And what helps is to know my WHY.