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You may think I’m weird, but I feel like I’m in an extended version of 2020… It’s like bingeing on Homeland on Netflix and wanting to stop watching but wishing it never ends and then when it finally ends, you are stuck in the false reality of the shitty ending?
That’s what 31st Jan 2020 was like for me - and I was only at Season 4. When it hit midnight, I was thinking is it really a new year? Is it going to get worst? Or stay the same?
What is possible about the new year?
Every year since 2017, I’ve been sharing on my blog - my List of Possibilities for the new year. You may call it by a different name - New Year Resolutions, or Goals etc.
I was struggling with writing out the list because it just didn’t feel right to me, to write about what’s possible when things are still uncertain. It could be a impossible list but I know anything is possible if we come from “anything is possible.” But still ….we all know what happened in 2020……..COVID-19 happened and is spilling over my 2021!
I started writing out my 2020 High moments, and ironically my high was IVF journey, not that we started a new cycle. On my 2020 list of possibilities was to begin again in KL. And that didn’t go down as expected, and that’s okay.
My IVF journey is indeed a blessing because it trained me well. It trained me to be okay with the waiting, to be okay with the inability to meet people, to go on holidays, to teach a yoga class; to manage the frustrations over not being to do what i want.
With the social distancing and mask-wearing, for the first time I was one up with the rest of the world, when i used to feel like I was left behind.
Something to celebrate yes?
And when I looked to 2021, and if every day there’s an opportunity to BEGIN AGAIN, I can re-create my list NEWLY, changing the words, so I have access to more self-loving in 2021.
In 2021, I’m saying YES to ME.
I’m saying YES to celebrating my Joys in 2020 instead of the Highs or the Wins.
I’m saying YES to Surrendering to whatever came up in 2020 instead listing my Lows.
I’m saying YES to a Self-Care Playlist instead of a list of possibliites
So here goes……..
Sophie’s 2020 JOY LIST
Hanging out with Steve and Fay in Bali, which was our last holiday
Making dance non-negotiable every Tuesday morning
Walks with the Tooks everyday during lockdown
Started teaching Yoga - online
Signed up for a fertility support + yoga specialist course
Part of an awesome team that raised over US$30K for the Africa Yoga Project
Studying yoga sutras with the Sutra Study tribe
Started couple personal training with the Tooks every Saturday morning :)
Listening to spirit baby meditations
Taught yin + meditation every Tuesday
sophie’s 2020 SURRENDER LIST
COVID
Making babies
SOPHIE’s SELF-CARE PLAYLIST 2021
Take up a new skill that has nothing to do with yoga (flower arrangement, interior decorating, ukulele, watercolour painting…………….)
And perhaps also take up a course related to yoga ;) like another YTT in fertility yoga and/or breathwork ?
Start writing again and write more valuable fertility content to support other women who’s TTC
Be happy and sad at the same time
More yoga + More meditation + more journaling + more dance + more love
Digital detox once a week
Continue with my Sutra Studies
Sleep by 11pm
Eat a healthy breakfast every day
Walk for at least 30 mins a day
Eat ice cream
Plan (and dress up) for dinner dates with hubs once a month
Being by myself
Getting a hair cut
be a yes for my yeses and a no for my nos
Stop hanging out with negative people
…..
This is list is endless :) and I’m happy because
2021 , I’m coming in!!!
“What you are is what you have been. What you will be is what you do now.”
In one way or another, all of us have been traumatised by the events of 2020 and honestly I can’t feel 2021 beginning, but it has and if we keep watching netflix or complaining or doing the same over and over again, nothing will change.
What happens next is up to YOU, NOW. If you come from you are ready now - what are you ready for?
I acknowledge that since the start 2021, I’ve been allowing things to happen to me. And that’s okay. And I know I have the courage to do what needs to be done at my own time. And when things get too much, I will give myself permission to let things be as it is and as it is not.
Yes we can’t control whats happening in the world but I’m ready to start healing my heart and body, moment by moment.
And in order for healing to begin, I’ve to start saying yes to ME.
JOURNAL PROMPTS
So if you’ve not started yet, start NOW! It’s never too late.
I know you are probably tired, depressed, frustrated as I am, but why not be about taking action. You are ready now.
Make your list! You can call it anything you want -
My invented list / List of possibilities / Self-Care list / New Year resolution / 2021 goals………
If you need help, try my 2 steps to creating a new year of possibilities!
Write in your journal or share in the comments below. If anything is possible, what do you want to make happen in 2021?